I have a problem. Maybe several problems. Who doesn’t right?
Here’s the thing, I’ve realized that its quite easy for me to give up. When something doesn’t go the way I expected it to, it becomes easy for me to come up with reasons why my plans won’t work anymore.
I easily forget what motivated me in the first place. Or I lose interest. Or I sometimes unconsciously distract myself with other things.
When life throws me lemons, I get sour.
You’re probably saying; “That’s life girl, grow up, get over it.” or “Life won’t always happen the way we expect it to, but you have to make use of what you’ve got.”
Trust me, I’ve heard it all. I’ve probably even said it to a few people. I’ve even tried telling myself that a few times. However, once I am consumed by a particular idea/plan, it becomes extremely difficult for me to see anything else or to find any other way.
So when my plans don’t come to fruition, I get disappointed and I start making excuses. “It’s not the best time for it anymore” Or, “I should wait until things work out.” At times, my mind would just completely give up on the idea(s) without even letting me know. Any disruption in my flow/focus causes me to become best friends with all the excuses and the distractions I can come up with.
Here’s a perfect example.
I had every intention of writing posts for this blog every day, or at least, every week. But then, life happened. And since my last post, I can’t even say that I’ve stayed seated around my computer for more than five minutes.
You see, I had planned on writing about some specific topics, but I felt like I needed to first have the experience(s) so that I could keep my posts authentic. But then my plans got delayed. Life threw me a curveball. As a result, my mind decided that since I couldn’t write about those particular posts, at that point, there was nothing else that I wanted to write about.
Yes, I know. I have a problem.
I was so bummed out about the turn of events that I simply lost my motivation.
Again, I Know. I have a problem.
So, I kept busy doing other things. I allowed myself to become engulfed with distractions and excuses, which to be honest, always happens. More often than I’d like it to. The good thing is that I can acknowledge that I have a problem. Which is the first step? Right?
A relative of mine agreed. She also reminded me of something. Something I should have never forgotten in the first place. She said: “Sometimes you have to remind yourself that even when we are in the worst positions of our lives when life throws X, U, Y and Z at us, especially when we wanted ‘A’, we still have to make time for the things that are important to us. We have to make time for these things that mean so much to us because that is our way of practising self-care. “
And this blog, my writing, that’s MY way of practising self-care.
I also had to remind myself that it is important for me to be kind to myself. Regardless of how much or even how often I fall short of the expectations I set for myself. I had to stop beating myself up, so, I started writing this post.
Sometimes we find ourselves in positions we didn’t expect, good and bad. But it’s important for us to appreciate the process and live in the now, even if the situation doesn’t seem ideal. Because when we finally get to that place of contentment, when our plans and life’s order align, we can genuinely appreciate the journey we were on.
#TrustTheProcess
P.S: Shoutout to my Cuzzo for talking me through everything and for always being there;) Follow her Instagram.
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